And I’ll give you a thousand chances before I realise that you’re an indecent human being. Well, okay, not indecent, but just not a very good friend or not suitable to me.
I never forget birthdays or names or faces of people who I have had a conversation with.
Obviously, I don’t forget any of that if you’re my friend.
Hmmm, you know what, fuck it, I’m not going to say nice things about ya’ll right now.
By ya’ll I mean my Japanese friends.
Fuck all of you. FUCK. YOU.
I mean, I always take the time to email happy birthday even from overseas. I am fucking thoughtful. And what did you do yesterday…. NOTHING!
I did not get one happy birthday from anyone that’s my “friend” in Japan.
This is why I don’t want to be in Japan. People I know are jerks, and people I get to know think I’m stupid coz
a) I have a vagina
b) I look foreign
c) I’m honest, and I don’t shy away from the way I feel and bitch about behind their backs.
I’m sorry I’ve been like that since the day I was born. I’m so sorry. I pity you for being born and brought up into a normal loving, judgmental, ignorant society, that thrives on shame.
I’m so sorry.
I always make sure to put your birthdays in my diary, every time I get a new one, so I don’t forget to email you, wherever I am.
Even after the earthquake, I didn’t forget any of your birthdays. ANY. I always take the time to try to organise a get together, cause you always want to do it but you never DO.
You know, I may have been a bitch in your eyes when we were 10, 11, but guess what I became the bad guy for you because none of you said it to someone’s face.
I always said it to your face.
And guess what I got? A grand intervention by teachers because I spoke up and all you could do was talk about people behind each other’s backs and finally run me off to the teachers because I had the guts to say it to your faces.
I am done with you.
You have no spec of gratitude or class, you’re just a normal, ignorant pig. What the fuck ever dude.
You know that saying, ‘仏の顔も三度まで’ (Buddha’s face stays calm for three mistakes.) Well fuckwits, it’s been over three times, and I am no longer my calm self.
I never fight with anyone, I never get in fights, I despise them, and I’ve decided that you’re unworthy of my faith and chances, I am not even going to bother with your petty little normal lives.
I am off getting wiser and known in the world, while you stay in your little box of normal things that doesn’t scare you because it never changes or challenges you.